Often I think about choices I have made at intersections in my life. Some have been bad choices that have led me down detours and dead-ends or worse. I don't know how many of my choices have been right nor even due to me (rather God dropped good things in my lap) but I have an idea about a few things I have done right. A friend reminded me this week that we often compare our blooper reel to others highlight reel and get frustrated and depressed.
If I take back some of my choices, then a cascade of other things change- some of them very good. No, I cannot give into regret and thoughts of changing the past. Growth comes through going through, not by avoiding or going around the reality (and consequences) of our choices.
I do know I am not who I was. God changed me, he changed my heart and I really did become a new creation, renewing my mind and my heart- my personality was radically altered but not perfect. My life since then has been a period of learning, examination and growth.
It's all a part of growing up...
"And the thing I find most amazing
In amazing grace
Is the chance to give it out
Maybe that's what love is all about
I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how
I'm not who I was..."
(From I'm Not Who I Was by Brandon Heath)
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